templeton grove

Room 4. I doubt I'll need more.

Saturday, April 14, 2018

For J - a

I promised a very special person something in the way that I promise her everything: wordlessly and with my heart. And then I keep my promise. She said "You should write every day" and I now do. Not as much as I'd like at times; there's more to that which maybe one day will become one with the wind but for now is still inside me waiting its day, its time. And part of that is what brought me back here. Temporarily, at least. * I've re-seen these 'mind dumps' so many of which since and before never came to exist and I wonder how much time I would need to do anything with these. The other blogs along with this; my quatumvirate. It's interesting to see things again from the perspective of my continued learning. You can change a lot in a little time provided much of it is perceptual; although whose perceptions would indicate the degree of change. If change is real where real means ... more perception. It's surprising how a limit to thought can be considered of value. This world is quite different from the one I inhabited when I started these blogs although I think I had the continued good fortune to avoid much of 'normal life' as I always have. That's life often, isn't it? Dipping in and out of the 'real world' while living in your own. As much as most ever 'live'. I've discovered "Chvrches" - another good Scottish band. I imagine soon there'll be no more. Arrivederci Scotland. I shall try to say farewell while you still have ears to hear me.

Saturday, February 16, 2013

I forgot the number and letter

But will get back to this. Double-counting, but it's not paper.

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Today's a day.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

8

Sunday, November 02, 2008

mind dump M

A face in glass, how do you decide fire

A petal crushed to make way for my heart

People hide behind the façade of acceptability

Egypt did not give up its princesses; this was weakness


Language is history: a word here, a word there



1/ Elizabethan age - religious zeal put brother against brother 2/ The flame is an expression of confusion 3/ Psychology. It's all in the head, innit? 4/ I look at them: they'll all be first to put the second boot in. No cojones. Not like their 'leader'. What do they call themselves now, 'boss'? Didn't really have gangs, too much self-respect. 5/ She came out of the blue. She couldn't have come from anywhere else. 6/ Perhaps, being closer to the last day of truth he was better able to see it as it was; unlike we, far removed from it. 7/ A port. Where people come and go. All the time. An important refuelling stop. What makes you think everyone wants to fly in straight lines: a to b, b to e, etc? Still, it's not as if they don't but that's a different matter. Fuel - thermodynamic energy stolen/used more appropriately from the sun. 8/ Plato's 'Republic' seen as elitist, but you can't have a ruling class without an elite however you wish to portray them: one makes decisions that are carried out and benefits from this/by this by remaining in power; with the trappings of power. Plato's elite were, at least, Spartan in their comforts were they not? And what about the elite of ideas? I teach this because it is what I want to believe and privilege, but not the other (in a way that gives it equal standing). 9/ Who knows? If a man gets to thinking - he might just turn Greek. 10/ I've lived the dead life, 23 hours a day; easy, easy. 11/ "To be normal is the ideal aim of the unsuccessful". Jung. 12/ The ideal woman is a mother, daughter, sister, lover, confidante, friend, fantasy. 13/ "What has God to do with business?" "What has he ever had to do with it?" 14/ How long does it take for an idea to come to fruition? 50? 100 years? And then? Then it only leads to more unanswered questions. 15/ Remoteness breeds (a desire for) mysticism. 16/ They're all me; but I'm not. 17/ Ringmaster/Whoremaster/Slave Driver. He was a man of too few talents and never enough wants. 18/ It's like you have the whole store of the world's beauty crammed neatly inside you. 19/ She's not perfect: she's not transient. 20/ I think even the dullest man would tire of his immortality eventually. 21/ The most well-rounded person is not one, but many. 22/ She's not a heartbreaker; well not of real people, only fools. And they're broken anyway. 23/ Add me to your list of conquests. A woman's gotta have a list of conquests. 24/ The only reason so many artists find fame posthumously is cause it's cheaper to (not) pay the dead. 25/ That faraway look where there's nothing but the object of his affections. 26/ The balm to my splintered life. 27/ Think about what he's giving you other than a 1-way ticket down an endless tunnel. 28/ Time and tide never leave great men alone: always pushing forward some antagonist to snap at their heels. 29/ As men of science and learning retreat to their towers, so ignorance sweeps in behind. 30/ Start with a lie, finish with a lie. And in between? All the jam you can eat! 31/ If you start with a lie so much is already tainted; even before you know it. 32/ "The ability for generalisation only the inexperienced can have" (Steinbeck) 33/ Has it changed him? No, but he's not the same. 34/ And he'd been taken to the country, but his mother had screamed "Oh! A bee! Bees are nasty!" whenever one had come near him. And so he'd never really been to the country at all. 35/ To a man, the right girl makes all the difference. 36/ I carry loneliness around with me in my backpack. It's charity: no-one else'll have him and it's not fair to leave him on his own. 37/ There's money to be made out of weakness; not much else though. 38/ "We can be lonely together," she said, and he knew it was true. 39/ "He's dyin'. Got mebbe 15 years left in him." "Dying? That's not dying!" "It is when you're him". 40/ I'm a businessman: I manage the variables in my favour. 41/ She's a biter. - Of nails, anyway. 42/ "How often do you change your bedclothes?" Isn't it funny how so many of the wrong conversations start with a question? But those that don't start with a question - well, they're even worse. 43/ Wisdom might come in many colours but there's still a finite amount of the stuff. 44/ All men have a passion for politics; some just never exercise it. 45/ You call wisdom repeating your forefathers' words at opportune moments. If so, then I shall never know it; but you shall never know aught. 46/ People are simple: they do you ill because they mean you ill. 47/ We seek to address yesterday's problems tomorrow. No wonder we never do. 48/ "S'funny, ain't it? How a man can know someone without ever havin' met 'em." 49/ He carries his cares under his eyes. 50/ Like Paul, you see what you like in the words of dead men (a biblical one!!!) 51/ 'No.' Do you know how many meanings that word has? Only one. But that one can mean everything. And after that, what need is there for any more? 52/ Understanding is a sorrowful place, stark but revealing in its poignancy. 53/ Wisdom is limited to our capacity to do wrong.

Monday, January 28, 2008

mind dump

all in one go.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Mind Dump N